First Victim: Kim Taehyung - Spontaneous

Method: Suicide

Date of Death: 2nd March 2017

Body location now: Cremated

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Tuesday, 1st May 2018.

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Kim Taehyung... What do I write about Kim Taehyung? He was one the last members of OT7 for me to befriend, and honestly? I wasn't sure it would work out too well. The first I heard of him was Jimin telling me he was going to be a nude model for some art student. I was... Confused, to say the least. Judgemental, to say the most. I was too judgemental back then. I pretended not to be, or at least, I tried not to be, but I always said the wrong thing. I still do...

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I think I messed up... Or maybe it helped? I can never tell anymore. When Taehyung was in the hospital in America, I thought he was going to die. He wasn't. I don't know why I had convinced myself he was going to. The car accident was minor, but we were all scared shitless. I guess it was the fear that made me think the way I did. Regardless, I gave him a flower. It was a kind, innocent gesture at the time. I had no idea the flower would inhabit a spirit and speak to him. Did the spirit come because it was I who gave it to him? Or does Taehyung... Sorry. Did Taehyung have some kind of connection to the Flower Realm prior? He must have, surely? Either that or his spirit is stronger than I thought... He's somehow managing to break through, like how the older flower spirits do when it's their time to serve. He seems to be trying to communicate with Jimin and warn him. He's reaching through and I don't know how to stop it. I got lucky that he messed up and the video appeared on my screen instead of Jimin's like intended. I really don't know what I'm meant to do.

 

I keep thinking about his death, even over a year later. I had hacked into his computer a week prior to his death and gathered his social media information, as well as control of his hardware. My plan was only to scare him and make him think he was in danger, and then reveal it was me. To this day, I still don't really know why I did that. I told myself it was test if I could be the intimidating host The Arranger desired me to be, but the errands I ran in my teen years should have made it obvious that I was. I just didn't want to admit it to myself...

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I didn't want to do what the flower was telling me to but, in the moment, I remembered The Arranger's offer and changed my plan instead. I encouraged him to overdose, resulting in suicide, as a way to protect his friends.

As myself, I acted as though I was part of the situation. He had no clue it was me behind it all. No one suspected anything. Not until those screenshots came out, that is. That's what messaged everything up.

If Jimin hadn't taken those screenshots, I wouldn't have gotten into this mess.

Ha... I say that as if my life would have been any better if I had completed my kills with ease...

I always forget...

I don't have any choice in this world.